I am Thankful

I am thankful for 25 years with you.
I am thankful that with you I knew what it was like to feel beautiful, to feel accomplished, to feel desired.
I am thankful for the role model you unknowingly were in showing forgiveness and patience.
I am thankful that we talked about life without each other just in case because it feels like you are cheering me on even now.
I am thankful for your support with my crazy internet business that has now turned into so much more.
I am thankful for your passionate embrace of games and toys and fun.  They make me happy too.
I am thankful that you shared your heart with me and that you saw my darkness and loved it too.
I am thankful for your acceptance.  I could always be me even when that "me" was less than good.
I am thankful that you told me and the kids every single day that you loved us.  Sometimes many times a day.
I am thankful for our son.  I hear you when he talks and when he plans his future I can hear your wisdom in his words.  He is so much like you.
I am thankful for our daughter.  I can't believe that we got to be pregnant and bring such a ray of sunshine into the world.  She may be carrying me right now, but she does so with your strength and honesty.
I am thankful that I know what true love feels like and looks like.  I know there are some that live an entire lifetime without knowing what that can be.
I am thankful that you supported my independence as much as my submission.
I am thankful for your faith in God and that you let me see your struggle to know it, understand it and embrace it.
I am thankful that I was known as yours and you were known as mine.
I am not happy today, but I am thankful. 
I am thankful that death is not the end and that one day my hopes will be realized and I will once again be in your arms.
I am thankful for God's perfect timing even when I don't understand it and today I am so incredibly thankful for you.