Friday, January 19, 2018

An Addiction

I think that grief is like recovering from an addiction.  I've never had to do that but I imagine it is something like this.  I physically crave your touch, your scent and the sound of your voice.  Without it I feel crazy, disoriented, unfocused and deeply depressed.  Just when I think I'm on the path to recovery there's a trigger (sometimes one I can't identify) and I crash.  Again.

I'm having withdraw symptoms.  Everything is harder.  I'm depressed.  I'm angry.  I'm remorseful.  I'm broken.  I'm manic.  I'm overcompensating.  I'm lying.   I'm searching everywhere for a cure, a magic trick that while rocket me from where I am to being completely free of my craving, my need for you.

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