I feel terrible. My blood sugar is insane and although I'm taking measure to improve my health I feel awful. It's more than just physical. It is really depression creeping into every part of my life. Sundays are so hard that I just can't make it to church every time. It feels like a weight on my chest most times lately. Sitting there without you. It is tough.
Worship hurts sometimes. I love God. I don't blame your death on Him. Sometimes finding the strength to open up for worship is overwhelming. It makes me feel vulnerable in an entirely new way. Is that what I have to do to feel healed? I don't know.
Spiritual, emotionally and physically...I'm just not healthy.
I've stopped counseling this summer and decided to spend that money on laser hair removal. That seems healthy, right? ;-)
